Overwhelmed...

It's one of those days again. I'm just feeling overwhelmed. My poor little baby is sick. He has had this little cough for the last week and it doesn't seem to be going away. And today he has been puking up everything he eats. He did okay for the first couple of bottles but then it was all down hill from there. We went to Shopko tonight and we got in the store and realized he had puked all over. Then we went to Wal-mart just right next door basically and when he was in the car we heard his puke and knew it was everywhere. The poor kid was soaked in puke. I felt so bad. And the worst thing is there isn't much I can do. I'm just as helpless as my poor baby is. He can't do anything to make himself better and neither can I and I hate it. And he's just been fussy all night because he doesn't feel good and then I get frustrated cuz I don't know what to do. It's one of those days I have to remind myself that I love being a mom and a wife and that my boys are my pride and joy. Sometimes it's easier to remember I love being a mom than a wife. I'm not sure why. I think maybe because my baby is so precious and innocent and my husband know exactly what he is doing. But nonetheless no matter what they seem to do I always love them. And as much as I love Christmas I'm going to be glad that it's over. This year is very different for me and I'm not sure how to handle it. This will be the first Christmas I will not be spending with my family. Last year we were able to go home for Christmas. This year we don't get to go home. I have to work a half day on Christmas Eve and then we both work the day after Christmas. So there isn't much time for us to go home. It doesn't seem to bother Josh, although he spent 2 years in Brazil away from his family for the holidays and he doesn't seem to have the emotional attachment to spending the holidays with family unlike me. Well I think I need to get off my soap box. I'm going to steal this idea from my friend Suzie because it just helped me reading her post like this. Anyways, here's a few reasons why I love being a mom and a wife.

1. Their faces light up when I'm in the room.
2. They make me happy and make me smile.
3. They both love me know matter what happens, even in my stupid moments. :)
4. Just being a mom altogether.
5. Know that I get to spend eternity with my boys (and hopefully, someday, a few girls and another boy) :)
6. Someday having my dreams come true of being a stay at home mom :) (a few more years of school)
7.Knowing that my husband loves me and tries so hard to make everything so perfect for me.

Thanks for listening to me gripe. But even through my griping, just know that I love my boys so much and I am eternally greatful to my Heavenly Father for the blessings he has bestowed upon me. Sometimes I just need a little reminder of them. :) I love my boys!!!